When you first start to fight against your disorder and find your inner voice, it is going to fight back even harder. Therefore, it is critical you have someone, some way, or something to monitor your progress, keep you motivated, and push you forward and onward. It is the key to the prevention of relapse, and the safety net to catch you when you fall. Read More
Over the course of my recovery, people have been very supportive and understanding. Over time, with their encouragement, I grow more self-assured and more confident.
But I’ve found myself in an interesting place of late. When I look back on the last five months, at where I am now and where I was, it is like day and night. I’ve made a lot of progress and this is great. What is interesting though, is I’ve found I am now pressuring myself to “feel good.” Read More
We all want the college experience. We get excited to (maybe) live on our own, make new friends, take classes that sound amazing, go to parties, and experience a new life.
But with college and transition, come a lot of challenges. Read More
A few months ago I was experiencing a low point in my recovery, and I was able to pretend that I was okay in front of almost everyone. This included my loved ones, and even my therapist and dietitian.
The few people who saw through my façade were the people in my eating disorder support group. The members of my support group can see through all of the lies and secrets of an eating disorder, because they have told the same lies and kept the same secrets. Read More
Originally published February 8, 2013.
After a long period of starving myself, I went from being morbidly obese to losing about one third of my weight. But one day I realized that I wasn’t actually happy.
Not only did I lose eating–one of the most pleasurable things in life- but I also felt empty, without any meaning. Read More
Originally published February 8, 2013. After a long period of starving myself, I went from being morbidly obese to losing about one third of my weight. But one…
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been a very self-conscious person. It’s possible it was caused by society, or maybe by my critical father (whom I…
Originally published June 28, 2013 I began struggling with body image in the eighth grade. My life had gotten to an extremely low point–I felt as if nobody…
Originally published February 22, 2013 Food has always had control over my life. Whether it has been eating too much or not enough, I have always been consumed…